reasons

my friend asked me last night, "why are you coming by yourself ? where is she?"
I said "we're not together anymore"

my friend replied, "too bad, I think you guys will make a great couple, from what I saw in your picture" I wasn't replying, can only smiled

then my friend asked me again, "what kind of person do you want to love?"
I smiled and answer this time, "someone who's not strong. Not strong enough to let me go and someone who could give me a strong reason to stay"

hujan, kopi dan rembulan

malam terasa lebih dingin kali ini, sangat dingin hampir mebuat perasaan ku kembali membeku
rindu akan kehangatan dan sentuhan sayang dari dirinya

hujan telah mendinginkan hatiku yang panas karena lelah mencoba bertahan
hujan telah membasahi jiwa ku yang mengering karena tiada sang tercinta yang membasahinya dengan kasih dan sayang

secangkir kopi menghangatkan ku, terbawa pada bayang senyumnya yang hangat manja
secangkir kopi akan membuatku tetap terjaga, agar tidak berhenti aku berdoa dan berusaha meraih cintanya

bagai rembulan kelembutannya menerangi jiwaku yang gelap
bagai rembulan yang cantik, parasnya selalu hadir dipikiranku

hujan, kopi dan rembulan hadirmu selalu kurindukan

it's you

Why do I follow this heart of mine
Risk my mind to follow it every time?
Why do I follow the call again?
No one hears but I can hear your voice out loud

Through any obstacle I barging in
Braving in the hail and thunderstorm
To bring you hope and love
It’s what I see inside, I see in your eyes

I can pull you from the wreckage, I can cheer your life
I can bring you what you need, I can make it alright
But it’s you who lifts me to higher ground

thank You

In this last a few day of 2011 I would like to say..

thank You Alloh for all the kind blessings, for being with me through out the year
thank You... thank You...

You made it so beautiful for me this year that I thought it was the best year ever,
but with You still the best is yet to come.

next year I believe is even better and I wish I can be more useful for the others,
make their life also special and happy in the coming years

thank You Alloh for Your lessons in my life.
I promise I must become a better person for every remaining years that I have
I know the path won't be always smooth, and not because it's easy then I say "Yes I can",
but when I say "Yes I can" with Alloh bless it will be made easy

In Alloh I trust, thank You...

myAngel

I wasn't perfect, I done a lot of stupid things
Still no angel
I wasn't looking for forgiveness, I wasn't laid up by my pride
Just shocked by your attention

Did someone sign me up for love?

I guess you did
And now I can't live without it

You changed my life, You cleaned me up, You found my heart
Like only a woman can
You pulls me up when you knows I'm sad, You know your man
Like only a woman can

You're kinda perfect, You're kinda everything I'm not
Yes, you're an angel
It's amazing how you're patient
Even more at times I'm not, You're my conscience

But who decided I'd be yours?

It might be you
Cause now I can't live without you

Return to Sender

One by one, everything that connected to you, I have to remove them from my life
Not that I hate you, but they'll be too much for me to carry them in my life

There is one final thing that I have to give it back
Since you are not coming back.
Sooner or later this thing will be going back to you

If you want to hate me for doing this... please do so
It's better for me to feel being hate than being loved but stand so far apart

I would like to say Thank you and Forgive me for everything
Wished that you just stay in my dream not to become real

Point of No Return

Standing at the crossroad again
Which way should I choose ?

Any way I choose will lead to the future of me
Will my journey be with a partner or
Will I continue to roaming this world alone ?

God please help me choose the right path
The path that have Your bless

Any path I choose will be a point of no return
Which way it may be, I have prepared for the worst and hope for the best
Which way it may be, I will not do it like I did in the past

So help me God...

Jam Sunyi

Jam sunyi, hari yang sepi
Hanya itu yang ku temui setiap hari

Akan kah hari sepi ini kan berganti ?
Lelah aku harus begini
Hanya rindu mengisi hati

Wahai hatiku yang sendiri, bersabarlah engkau disini
Sampai kapan ?
Mungkin sampai tiba saat pergi menghadap sang penguasa waktu

Waiting in The Rain

Every time when the rain is falling
Somehow inside my head a song called "rainy days and you" play over and over

I do like that song, sure it always make me smile when I listen to it.
Now not only smile that will come up when I listen to but also tears

When the song played I can see a girl playing, dancing and smiling in the rain...
Yes, I'm in love with that girl long before she knew that I loved her

I made a promise to myself when I get the chance to show how much I love her,
She will be my last no matter what...

Do love have blind me? may be my eyes... but not my heart
As another love song said "I can wait forever"...

Yes, I can wait for you... again and that's what I did before you knew me

Will You...

Will you ever to answer when I call ?
Will I ever to talk to you again ?

Will you ever to forgive all my mistakes ?
Will I ever be good enough for you?

Will you ever accept my visit to your place again ?
Will I ever to see you again?

I am dying to see you again...
I can't stand being apart from you for too long...

Will you and I ever...

Wahai...

Aku makin tersiksa dengan semua penyesalan ini, berat sekali beban kesalahan ku
Wahai sang Pencipta bantu aku bertahan di jalan-Mu,
Jangan biarkan aku tersesat pada jalan yang tidak Kau ridhoi
Aku sangat menginginkan dia,
Aku sangat menyayangi dia,
Aku tidak mau kehilangan dia sampai maut memisahkan
Wahai Engkau sang Pencipta maafkan dosa ku
Beri aku kesempatan lagi untuk bersama dia
Kesempatan yang tidak akan pernah aku sia-siakan lagi
Hanya Engkau yang maha tahu yang terbaik untuk ku dan untuk dia

In Silence

Kesunyian hati ku terulang, hanya keheningan yang menyesakan yang kurasa kini.
Tak kusangka akan secepat ini aku merasa kesepian lagi
Hukuman kesalahan ku kali ini terasa lebih berat....

Dalam kesunyian terbayang senyum cantikmu, terdengar lembutnya suaramu.
Akan kah aku kan merasakan lagi hangatnya sentuhanmu yang penuh dengan ketulusan...
Andai aku lebih peka....

Bila kesempatan itu datang lagi, aku tahu apa yang harus kuperbuat untuk mempertahankan semua.

In silence I pray for both of us....